April 2017
I knew coming into this month that it would be difficult for me. My friend, renowned astrologer Laurence Hillman often says, “You can do the planets, or the planets will do you.” Meaning, that you can either look at and attempt to understand what is happening within the movements of the planets and the influence this has in your life; as a result, having a perspective on what you are experiencing. Or, you can just let life take its course and live these passages unaware, though no less affected.
In this case, I understood coming into April that four planets would be in retrograde; each having a potentially distinct and challenging effect, on my own natal chart, and therefore on my life. You might think being aware of this, would make it easier to navigate. Living through it proves otherwise.
Venus was in retrograde through April 15th and as it had been in retrograde since March 4th, its effect on love, beauty and money were already underway as the month started. For me this translates into what feels like the most challenging passage yet, in my relationship with Edgar.
Layer onto this, the yearly Saturn retrograde which hit on April 6. The taskmaster of all planets tugging at the earth and my soul with the imperative to rethink everything about the Mission, my work, and my collaboration with Edgar. A time to face fears and responsibilities and goals head-on. Normally this would be motivating but with Saturn appearing to move backwards, it has been anything but.
It has also translated into Edgar questioning the Mission and the work we do together, in a way that has left me profoundly sad and unmotivated.
As if this is not enough, Mercury entered retrograde on April 9th, assuring that any communication happening about any of the above, is likely to be badly written, misinterpreted, and then misunderstood. That is, if the communication device you are using even works to get the communication out in the first place. In fact, maybe I should save this post before the site crashes and all is lost. (Did I mention this is all putting me in not the most positive of mindsets in the present?)
Tomorrow, we can look forward to adding a fourth planet to the fruit salad of retrogrades. On April 20th, Pluto will go into retrograde, where it will remain for the next five months. As I typed the last sentence, what actually came out was that April 20th, Pluto will go into retroGRACE.
As Pluto is slow and far away, its effect in retrograde is likely to be more subtle. A time to come to terms with our underlying motivations. A chance to really go deep and to understand where the passion for this Mission we have been engaged in is really coming from. A time to understand who and what we really are on the deepest levels.
Understanding what Pluto in retrograde will mean for Twin Flames will be the next passage in our story. Its influence will force us to face our demons and like St. George and the dragon, to purge them and find our way to living our most authentic selves.
In 11 days, I will return to Tamera, the Peace Community in Portugal, with my husband Eddie for our second year of participation in Global Love School. This will be the next chapter… stay tuned.