It’s been two years since I last visited our blog. Today, I received a message from a very special young woman whom I met in Graz a few years ago. She shared with me that she had read this blog and was touched by it. I put fingers to keyboard this afternoon in credit to my appreciation for her kind words and resonance expressed to me about earlier posts here. This makes me feel that perhaps the time has come to update any readers who frequent this site and to welcome any new readers who will find resonance in this story in the future.
When last I shared our ongoing personal story, my husband Eddie and I were on our way to our second year of Global Love School, in the Peace Community, Tamera, in Portugal. It was the end of April 2017. When I returned that year I neglected this blog because I began work on a book in which I adapted my personal journal from Love School. As I am writing this the end of May 2019, Eddie and I have just returned from our fourth year of Global Love School.
So much has happened in our story in the intervening two years. Much has been in service to Love. What we have learned has allowed us to make choices that are resonant with our hearts. In my family, I have been able to bring harmony to this story of deeply loving two men. My husband, Eddie, and I have been together now for 36 years and tomorrow we will celebrate our 28th wedding anniversary. Edgar, and I have been together now for four-and-a-half years. He is in the process of separating from his former primary partner. She has never been able to accept the connection he and I share as Twin Flames and now has begun to see other men. Edgar and I have rented an apartment together in the city in which he lives and we will begin to live together part-time. We continue our work together and are in production on a documentary film titled SEX+50. I will share more about this in upcoming posts.
Now, I share the amended prologue to the book I wrote after returning from our second year of Global Love School.
Greetings!
If you are meeting me for the first time through this blog entry, it might be helpful to understand what brought my husband, Eddie, and me to Tamera’s Global Love School for the first time, in 2016.
Eddie and I met in 1983. I was twenty-one years old and he was forty-one. After an eight-year affair, we began to live together and married in 1991. From the time we married our relationship was monogamous. In 2001 our daughter was born. After her birth, our previously passionate sexual relationship evolved into what eventually became a sex-free partnership. We lived peacefully together as companions, partners, and parents for ten years before we spoke about the demise of our erotic connection. Transparency in love and sexual desire was not part of our communication in those days.
In 2011, when I was forty-nine years old, I had a conversation with Eddie, in which I raised the topic of our now sex-free partnership for the first time. For me, living this way was no longer acceptable. I asked how he would feel if I found a lover outside of our relationship.
He considered this. Then he answered that he recognized my erotic nature as an important part of me. He said that he could not, in good conscience, block me from expressing myself in this way; especially in light of the lack of sexual connection in our own relationship.
I asked if he would want to know with whom or when I became involved with another partner. He replied no, he would prefer not to know.
Life proceeded with this, “Don’t ask, don’t tell, agreement in place.” We didn’t speak of this again for four years. I felt open and had the desire to explore my erotic nature again, but as a middle-aged mother, I no longer knew this side of myself, or how to express it.
Then, in 2014, Edgar entered my life. He is twelve years my junior and from the first moment we met, our connection was uncanny.
Ours is a relationship that defies conventional boundaries or explanations. We were brought together by a message Edgar channeled, on our first meeting, at a media business conference in Ronda, Spain (a story unto itself, which is shared here). The message unites us around a Mission for Humanity. We were creative partners in this Mission for several months before we recognized and eventually admitted to one another that we were also in love, but not in a conventional sense. We became lovers in May of 2015. The intensity of our connection was unlike anything either of us has experienced previously. Diverse mediums and psychics who came into our lives as a result of the channeled messages that were starting to come through Edgar and later through me as well, regularly, recognized us as “Twin Flames.” It was a term neither of us was familiar with, but have since researched extensively.
We became transparent about our unique relationship, including our sexual connection, with our partners in July of 2015.
Neither my husband, Eddie, or Edgar’s partner received this news well. The following two years were an emotional battlefield in both of our primary relationships. It was a journey that was exhausting and disheartening. Throughout this dark time, the commitment and unconventional bond that Edgar and I share continued to deepen, intensify and grow.
After hanging on through an emotional roller coaster ride, my relationship with my husband, Eddie, also began to deepen and grow. The commitment that I made to be completely transparent with him about my relationship with Edgar, transformed our communication and eventually our relationship as well. Eddie was catalyzed to embark on a path of self-discovery and transformation, that was life-changing and ultimately rewarding for him, as well. The seeds of this transformation were planted in Tamera during our first session of Global Love School, in 2016. Our daughter began to embrace the transformation of our family constellation during the Youth Camp in Tamera that same year.
Our ability to successfully open our monogamous relationship, after being together for thirty-three years; and as a family to look at and then to embrace “love without fear,” was mirrored and supported in the Healing Biotope of Tamera. We are deeply grateful to this Community for its support.
Edgar’s journey has had a diverse outcome. Unfortunately, his partner was not open to the kind of personal transformation that would allow her to embrace, or even accept our relationship in the way my husband and daughter have. Edgar was embattled in that relationship and at the time of this writing, in May of 2019, is in the process of separation from his former partner.
For each of us, our journey is far from complete. Global Love School in Tamera holds important keys for us. My hope in sharing our intimate journey publically through this blog is that our insights and story will inspire others to recognize that how we live love and the expression of sexual desire on this planet is in dire need of transformation. There will be no peace on earth as long as there is war in love.
I hope that you will put aside any judgment our story may trigger for you, and be open to joining us on a transformational journey towards a Global Revolution and the Healing of Love.
With much love and gratitude,
Betsy
In service to Love!